Why am I so uncomfortable with the thought of initiating touch? Not repulsed, but fearful. Presumptive, too forward, misconstrued, not appropriate. As a teacher I was very fearful of having a touch be taken the wrong way. I built walls and distance on both emotions and actions. I have experienced the need, in myself and when visiting my father in the rest home. It was the only sense he had left. Taste, smell, sight, hearing were either gone or severely impaired. But I would hold his hand, he would respond and soon be in a deep sleep. There is something that causes me to hesitate to touch one other than family.
On Mar 3, 2015 KC wrote:
Why am I so uncomfortable with the thought of initiating touch? Not repulsed, but fearful. Presumptive, too forward, misconstrued, not appropriate. As a teacher I was very fearful of having a touch be taken the wrong way. I built walls and distance on both emotions and actions. I have experienced the need, in myself and when visiting my father in the rest home. It was the only sense he had left. Taste, smell, sight, hearing were either gone or severely impaired. But I would hold his hand, he would respond and soon be in a deep sleep. There is something that causes me to hesitate to touch one other than family.