What maturity and kindness in a young girl. Keep going, Maggie. What you can accomplish is limitless!

I 'checked it out' when meditating for more than sixty years. I haven't read any book for about twenty years. I watched some videos from these people you mention and I don't see that their books can help anybody to go beyond ones personality games or even wanting to get out of it. In contrary, those 'new spiritual concepts only provide sophisticated ways to survive with ones self image. You didn't understand my comment. Just saying 'wrong' is the usual trick of self defense. Don't worry, you have the wast majority of humanity behind you.