Thanks for this. It is great. Helping others gives me physical healthy. What I had seen is that when people who know me accuse me I become helpless and defenseless. Before I look why they would, am already giving in and regretting why I knew them.
So I tried to develop a system that deals and gives answer before giving in or regretting or staying away from them. The system failed. What happens is this when persons who don't know me accuse me or praise me it is same same. So those stay in touch with me praise me a lot because I do a lot so that if there some issues they tell me not curse or accuse or criticize me. This weakness kills me. I also understood am very unkind to those hurt me. I strongly hide my personal life when someone discovers my mistakes I hate the persons because in personal life I have no rule.

Well, Maria said that addicts relating with religion or culture based or so or so...it is ok. but sometimes it is good to joke. So if we joke, what did she say about some patients that freak every an hour who some doctors warned their wives would carry 10 babies one time. I am just joking please because I can't afford to provoke.

Thank you very much for the science